There will come a time when I have to make a decision. A crucial decision which some lovers may see it as big sacrifice, whereas others may take it as defiance. I wonder it'd make any difference in my half of lifetime. No doubt, it'll affect everyone of the people in my circle.
It's true I have had and still have a really long time to think about the dilemma. For a few years now, in addition to a few more years from now. But I just couldn't find decent excuses nor revenues to counteract the problem, at the very least. Yes, I still have a few more years to think about it...maybe then I'd grow wiser as I aged and come up with good explanations and the reasons.
It's such a big deal because it involves my principle. I'm against doing something I'll regret and counting the wakeful nights for the rest of my life.
They are such decent people to be thrown under the bus. My decision will mean a lot and make phenomenal differences for me, and for them.
Maybe when I leave, I won't be leaving as the dark gunman walking in the rain, with long cloak flying behind...