Something never change. It always brings back those high school memories where it all started. Those moments. And I have had many episodes of those moments. Even at this point of my life.
Do you know what are the strengths and weaknesses of an introvert? Believe it or not, I've read many of those psychology topics than you could ever imagine. Once again, I'm trying to reveal the dark sides of myself, and it's going to be another post of too-personal account. And once again, I'm not sure how this is going to affect my career portfolio, or portfolio career.
Yes, I am one of those people you hardly meet in your life, and you'd wish to be better off to not come any closer. And you think I'm quirky. I can read your mind well of the way you think of me; look well at the way you treat me, talk to me and the moment you look into my eyes. I don't have to ask. Because introvert has high awareness and self-consciousness than average joes and janes. Why I said "than average joes and janes?" Because only introverts live in the extroverts world, not the other way round. That's how you find me a bit - far-out.
I won't go into details of what the nature of introverts, or their characteristics. You can google it anyway. But I believe there got to be some levels of introversion in place. So I googled it, and here's my finding (from Barbara W. Daille):
6. I’d prefer to sit in a packed meeting hall than to give a speech to everyone there.
5. I’d rather spend time in a crowded bar than sit in a packed meeting hall.
4. I’d choose eating lunch with a group of people I don’t know well over spending time in a crowded bar.
3. I’d rather go to tea with a perfect stranger than eat lunch with a group of people I don’t know well.
2. I’d buy a bottle of water and a bag of pretzels from the vending machine rather than go to tea with a perfect stranger.
1. I wish I lived on a deserted island so I could avoid having to make conversation with anyone!
Today, just like one of those days, I found that people are still intimidated of me. Something I want to stop to go through everyday. Really, I don't need those people to remind me of who I am, I know myself way better. But something has changed. Nowadays, I walk more at the front of the people, instead of at the back when I was in high school. This has become my ritual.
I used to talked a lot during my younger days. At present days, I'd rather be all muted and clamped up. Maybe somehow, I'm cursed.
Good thing I find solace in love and books after all.
By the way, I feel like number 1 and 2 most of the time. So beat it! Beat it!
