After their seminar on Monday, they are trying to define my own happiness. People who don't know me much, who only two years younger than me, in their best intentions trying to tell me what is supposed to mean by happiness. In their pictures, happiness is being with friends. Happiness is trying to act like someon else (them).
I believe that I don't always follow the crowd. At times, when the majority moving in the same direction, I tend to walk the less travelled, even though I know their choices are the best one. Something I still in the process of finding answer as why I act the way I act. Or why I behave the way I behave. As I'm taking up Psychology, hopefully will give me an answer.
The word that makes people feel threatened if they stop saying nowadays is the word "enjoy". Cliche and really like fingernails on a chalkboard. Like you really want to give them a slap in the face.
"You must 'enjoy' university life."
"You must 'enjoy'."
"You must 'enjoy' hanging out."
"You will 'enjoy' joining ABC club."
"In university, in whatever you do, you must 'enjoy'."
Statement implying you don't enjoy anything at all.
You don't have to give big ugly smiles to show that you enjoy, do you? You don't have to act cute, or be flamboyant or be CRAZY to show you are happy, do you? 'Enjoy' is to be in your element, giving you pleasurable feeling while doing whatever makes you feel happy and satisfying. What if you don't enjoy hanging out? Is that make you an unhappy person?
When you don't hang out, does that make you a loser?
I'm not someone who would give up easily in trying to be myself. Don't make me.
You're not even close anyway.
