I'm like a lesbian, trying to accept the fact that she is alone, and have more preference towards the same-sex as she is growing up from teenager. Reality is cruel. I'm trying to accept the reality that I will only have a lover, because I'm a hopeless friend.
I'm not lucky as everyone else who could have hundreds of admirers, fans, friends, foes and hundreds of birthday parties to join. I'm just a lover, not a friend, because I lost that part many years ago.
We have different beliefs and stands. People could be in their own skin for 24/7 without getting bored, I truly admire them. But I believe that, putting on a little nice dress, or an especially nice heels, being a little naughty once in a while, is part of my nature. I guess you haven't known me.
I'm sure I am beautiful, and I believe every woman is beautiful, it is society that makes them look and feel ugly.
I'm an explorer and an adventurer. I have my eyes on new things that interest me. Trying on or being part of something new, is not the same as being an impostor. Impostor is a coward who afraid of being him/herself, who runs from reality. I'm exploring, at the same time, I'm learning new things that become my interests or nightmares. Even if it is against what you believe in.
As Jen said:
"My personal belief is that true beauty comes from humility and really loving and accepting ourselves first, then having fun testing the waters and trying new things to boost our confidence. Makeup should be used to express ourselves and to feel good about ourselves, not as a mask to hide what we are afraid of. We have the freedom of change and to be who we want to be so let's have joy in playing with that gift!"
Love. Please don't take the only thing that I have away from me.
