Ah...Frenz

Please forgive me, I always feel so small in a group. I have to say, I almost backed out at the eleventh hour.

Everyone always have something to say about everyone, in your face or behind backs. I want to let you know, it is a-Okay. I have been one to talk, and a topic over a table, for many pros and cons.  

When you sneeze or your ear itches, it is a sign. We are talking about you. Something valuable for us friends. What can I say, we are just being women, or girls. In search of bliss in time of happiness. 

Thank you for never give up on me. Guess only we know each other better and it's been two years. Hope we catch up again for more. 

Emotional Check

"Honestly, look me in the eye and tell me. Are you happy?"

A friend asked.

"I'd say I'm content," I said.

Maybe it's not a satisfying answer, so it reflects my unhappiness at some point.

"Do you think it's enough?"

"Do you want to stay in your country?"

I responded negatively. I'm afraid of what I've been feeling for this long. I would grow out of it, and then feel numb, and then give up expecting and put all of it behind.

I always ask myself the first question, many, many times, and I did brought it up and then fought about it. Until another person asked me this question again, only did it start to mess up my mind a little bit.

"Content" is not the answer. It's either you're happy, or you're not happy. If you feel content, you never get ahead and only remain in circle. You never expect for more and only remain where you are at the moment. I think I gave him the wrong answer. He knew.

This country is so boring. People are imitating everywhere and lack its originality. It is getting ahead, or maybe not. And it's undergoing whatever the developed nations had gone through.Why can't we be like Japan and Korea? If I want a Western life, I'd better go to its origin.

Shit, I feel so old. Inside and out. Time to migrate, MIGRATE!!

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