I feel myself merrier than I used to be. Because I stop thinking about how I used to be and how I had always be. I do more when I stop thinking about it and less aware of myself. I had always put myself under the microscope far too long too bitter and never aware of people around me. I should listen to them and laugh along. That's how they always wanted me to be.
I just want to thank you all for asking me to participate in all of your fun and amusement. I really feel included.